According to Facebook, today is siblings day. I think it’s another made up day to sell cards, or make people buy stuff. I don’t get the point. Perhaps its because me and my brother have an awkward relationship. I saw people posting about their brothers/sisters who had passed, and how much they miss them. And I realized I don’t have a picture of me and my brother from any time in the last probably 12 years. In fact, probably the last time we had a meaningful conversation was when I was pregnant with S, or maybe right after she was born.
My brother went to school out of state for a year, and while he was away, we talked quite a bit. I have struggled with resentment when it comes to he and my father – they have a very close relationship – one I could never have with either one of them. Two peas from the same pod. The can communicate by grunting to each other – it’s like redneck code.
It took my father getting pretty sick a couple of years ago before I could be grateful that my father and brother had that closeness. He was the one to convince Dad to see a doctor, and after a week or so in the hospital, where my brother took care of him like our mother the nurse would, he pulled through. I was grateful that Dad let someone take care of him – even if it wasn’t me. (I was the one to drop jello down the front of him).
I didn’t realize until typing this that it had been so long since I had a picture with him. I think I’ll send a text message just to say Hey – Happy Siblings Day. Who knows – maybe that will start a conversation. As our parents age, and our kids grow up, I realize that time doesn’t stop for anyone. And before I know it, it could be too late. Seize the day, and don’t be afraid – the worst that can happen is nothing – and the best, well, that’s to be determined. Trusting the journey is hard my friends, but oh the lessons we learn on the way!