There’s a lot of things we know we “should” do, or “shouldn’t” do, right? Like eat well, get physical activity, take it easy on the alcohol, and not to smoke.
But it’s hard dammit.
I feel like a blob. I’m sure the loaf of french bread that I got for 50 cents on the bakery clearance shelf didn’t help (just sayin). I know that when I eat well (meaning I steer clear or limit (haha) sugar and flour) I feel well. Not so blobby. But knowing, and No-ing are 2 very different things. Especially when we’re talking about me, and bread!
Full disclosure – mine wasn’t cut up – I ate it straight from the loaf.
I’m an emotional eater.
I’m pretty sure I have been since like 5th grade. But dang if it doesn’t seem harder to ignore it now. Not just because I feel like my jeans are the latest torture device, or that I feel things moving even when I’ve stopped moving… but those “should” be enough – right?
“Everybody” says you should look a certain way, eat a certain way, feel a certain way (like never hurting). But folks – here’s a bomb for ya –
Pain is relative. Trauma is relative. What hurts – hurts.
And when something hurts, we want it to stop hurting.
I’m getting a bit better about seeing pain for what it’s for – a compass. Something to draw attention to a part of me that needs healing. Sometimes it’s pretty obvious (like when I just about took my finger off on a mandolin slicer). Sometimes not so much. Like when loaves of bread are involved.
I’m still not completely sure what my bread-pain is…
And it may not reveal itself fully for a while… I know that my house is a bit of a mess with home improvement project(s), switching of summer/winter clothes, and my budding business (I do most of the work from my kitchen table). I’m starting to stress out about the holidays. I had an emotional purge last week, and I’m quite ready for a physical purge of the crap we’ve accumulated over the years. Our thoughts create our environment. So it’s time to clear the crap. Physically, emotionally, etc.
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